Out of Hibernation

I find it odd that I can type just fine while listening to music, but only if I just have one of my headphones in. When both are in, chaos ensues in my brain. It's especially strange because when I only have one in, I can hear all of the conversations going on in the office and there's even more audio stimulation going on. Maybe one day I'll have to research the scientific explanation for that.

I haven't really updated this thing in a while because I haven't really known what to say. During day one I was kind of an emotional mess. Each day I've missed him more, but it's been getting progressively easier. Today is the fifth day that he's been gone, and for the most part I'm honestly doing alright. It was helpful that I knew about the situation before I even met him. I knew exactly what I would be getting into, so it's not like I was blindsided. The other thing that turned out to be a blessing in disguise is that he was underway a lot. It sucked at the time, but it was almost like conditioning. It has made this time a little bit more bearable so I'm thankful for that.

Another thing that has been really helpful for me is knowing that he really wants to be doing this. I know that he didn't want to leave me or be away from his family for so long, but he's doing what he feels he has to do and I'm very proud of him for that. When he got his new uniforms, he was sooo excited. When he put them on and came out I told him that he looked good in them to which he replied, "But you can't see me!" So silly, but it was very cute. I know that if he didn't get to go he'd be disappointed and so I'm happy to support him and be here waiting with all of the other military wives, fiancee's, and girlfriends.

In other news, wedding planning is making me crazy. There are about 10,000,000 details that go into one day, and that's about 9,999,900 more details than I want to deal with. I'm grateful to have this wedding to plan because it's something productive to think about and plan on while he's away- but seriously?!? I'm about to do some serious delegation. It's a good thing that we're keeping this thing relatively small. I am looking forward to dress shopping today. I know it's still a little early so I don't really expect to find the dress today, but I want to get a good idea of what's out there to make sure that the one I do end up getting is the one that I want. Maybe I'll post pictures of the rejected dresses.